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Last Sunday, Zach woke up early. He went to my room and jumped into my bed. As usual, he woke Jake up and automatically woke me up too. Knew that I already opened my eyes, he asked me why his Daddy was still in Aceh and did not come back last night. I told him that his Daddy would be in Aceh until Monday night.

Suddenly, he said “Daddy does not love us anymore Mom.”
I was shocked when heard that, “Why did you say that?”
“Because he does not want to stay with us anymore. He often go away and leave us alone.”
His answer touched my feeling; I said “Zach, Daddy is working in Aceh. He is looking for money for us so then he can pay your school and buy you a toy?”
He was thinking a little bit and then asked me again “Is there a night in Aceh?”
I answered “Yes of course. Why?”
“So … why Daddy does not want to come back at our house at night?”
How smart my son. I told him that Aceh was very far from Jakarta, Daddy could not easily come back to Jakarta in addition no plane that available in every hour. He did not satisfy by my answer and he sighed “but Daddy does not love us anymore and I do not love him either. I only love you and Jake … I want to stay with you and Jake forever.”
“Zach, don’t be like that. You know, Daddy loves you right? He works hard for us. You love him right?”
Then, he said yes.
“Do you want to call Daddy tonight?” I asked him.
“Of course, tonight yah Mom.”
Then, he asked me to massage his arm by saying "Pijit dong Mom." He was funny when he talked in Bahasa.

In the afternoon, when we were on the way to the Senayan City Mall, he asked me why his Daddy did not call us. He told me again that his Daddy did not love us anymore. I did not know why Zach had a thought like that.

I told Jerome about that when he called me in the afternoon. At night, Jerome called us again and privately talked to Zach. After talked to his Daddy, I asked him whether he loves his Daddy. He said “I love Daddy, Jake and Mom.” Then, he gave me a kiss and asked me to massage his back.

During weekend, Zach was a good boy and tried to help me in taking care of Jake. He looked after his brother when I cooked or took a bath. He really loves his brother.

On Thursday, Jerome will go to Bangkok and Cambodia for a week. I do not know what Zach gonna ask. Today, when I got home, he showed me his drawings. He drew a framed-family picture. He said that he drew us, Daddy-Mommy-Jake-and him. He made two drawings, one for me and one for his Daddy. He asked me to keep it. I do not know why he was such a grown up little boy.