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Every monday in the first of the month, we go to see a doctor to do a routine check up for my pregnancy. Yesterday, we went to see our doctor. As usual, the queue was very long. We were there since 4.30 pm and got our turn at 8 pm. The hospital still use a traditional administration system, we even can not make appointment in advance.

Every month the doctor will do an ultrasound. Due to the condition of this country, we agree that we should do an ultrasound routinely for checking the baby's health. Yesterday, we asked the doctor to check the gender of the baby since my pregnancy is already 22 weeks now. And we found big testicles in the screen. Did it mean the baby will be a boy?

We were sorry to say that we both were a bit disappointed. Yeah, we were hoping that our second baby would be a girl since I am the only girl in my family and Jerome has only one sister, in addition we will feel "complete" if we have a girl. The doctor knew that we were bit disappointed because I said "Yeah, laki-laki lagi ya Dok?" (Is a boy again, Doc?) and he said "maybe I am wrong."

Our expectation for a baby girl has been getting higher because my pregnancy has been totally different than with Zach and most people often say "the baby will be a girl". Eventhough I never say yes or no to them, in my deepest heart I was hoping that their opinion would be true. I try to not expect too much and got a feeling since beginning that the baby will be a boy. But still I was feel a bit disappointed too yesterday.

Well that is a life. People can have many dreams or expectation but God will decide. At least, I will have 3 men in my life for taking care of me and will be the most beautiful woman in our family. I also think that at least Zach will have a friend at home. Now, I am only expecting that the baby will be born safely and healthy.


Galuh, 12 July 2005 at 6.30 am
Before go to the office