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This year, I have many resolutions i.e. I will get award for Philanthropy Research Award 2, write a book in volunteerism and take master in management communication since I have been working for community development for almost 10 years and want to develop my knowledge in advocacy, campaign, etc (and of course because my saving is enough to cover my master degree's fee).

Lucky me! I got all of them this year. Last saturday, I got an announcement letter from Indonesia University to let me know that I am accepted. Wow, Jerome and I were surprised because when I did the test I was very sick (felt week and during the test I often vomit) and the test was very ... very difficult. When I did the test, I thought 'oh my God, I am old now. I almost can not remember all the stuff when I was a student'. Anyway, I passed it. It proved that my brain is still working and I proud of it!

But the other side, I am pregnant now. All the morning sickness have been draining my energy a lot and one of the effect is I have to delay my research and my book. I was thinking to resign from the research eventhough I already got the award. I am still waiting for PIRAC's policy about that. I feel uncomfortable with them because last 3 months I did not do any progress.

For the master, I will postphone it for next year (of course after discuss it with my lovely husband). I feel I have no energy to do both work and study during my pregnancy period (If I take the master program, I have to start on September and go to school everyday after officehour, 7pm-9pm), in addition to go to Toronto in January next year. Unfortunately, I am not sure that I can divert it! I think I have to take a bloody test again next year.

We also think that we need to buy a car because we gonna have 2 kids, so I will contribute my saving for it too (I feel as a family, I have to contribute something eventhough not as much as Jerome. 'Tidak enak' tidak sumbang apa2). I agreed with Jerome that a car is our most important need for now. We can not depend on the taxi all the time, we need it for our mobility since we gonna have two kids soon and for our kids security too because most of taxi in Jakarta have no seatbelt at that back. Be sides, after we have been working hard we need something as the result of our hard work!!

My next plan, after gave birth I will start to save money again for my master.

At least, aku bisa buktiin bahwa ternyata gua masih bisa mikir juga tentang hal-hal yang berbau sekolahan. Seingatku, tahun 1997 udah mulai skripsi dan jarang banget ke kampus dan skripsi baru kelar tahun 2000. Gilaaaaaaa .... sempat ngerasa kok wawasan gua rasanya stuck, gak berkembang yahhh. Makanya kepikir ambil master!! Sempet down juga, karena pas test waaaah gila sebagian besar peserta tes masih muda-muda dan single. Anak sekarang pintar-pintar dan pada berduit yah, dibawah 30 (25-27) udah pada ambil S2. Wuiiiiiiih, huebattt!